2nd: Neutral Colors

When I was a little girl I hated neutral colors because they were bland and boring. I now stare up at the night sky looking at the stars that twinkle and shine. I hated my brown eyes, I wish I had blue eyes or maybe even green. I now stare at myself in the mirror looking at my eyes as they resemble oak and the trunks of trees and the ruins beneath our feet. My room used to be purple but now it’s pink but I wish it was white. I learned now that white goes with everything even though as a little girl I hated the color white. White wasn’t like pink or yellow but isn’t white used to make the two? I love the color white now because everything goes with it, the color black and gray reminds me of the darkened gray skies after a sunset. I never felt more fulfilled to drive within the night because my thoughts become stronger than my words and my mind is more alive and awake at night then it is any other time during the day. I hate how my nails grow the way they bend down and curve. I have to paint my nails or get acrylics but if my nails chip or break I'll just cover them with a band aid. I hated the ocean and the waves that crash at sea but now I realize how the ocean glistens and gleams within the sun and moonlight reflecting off its waters and waves. I don’t feel like myself without jewelry so I always remember to put jewelry on first thing in the morning. I hated neutral colors because they weren’t like me. Neutral colors weren’t the colors Disney princesses wore and everything in my childhood was always colored and bright. I found a deep hatred within the neutral colors and it almost seemed like they hated me back. As a little girl I was shy and timid. I was afraid to speak in front of the class, afraid of being judged and laughed at. I spoke with soft words and indiscretions. And now my words are like knives that cut through hard spoken lies. I became loud, outgoing, and outspoken. I found myself in neutral colors. I now wear black, white, grays and browns. I hated neutral colors, but I love them now.

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